Self Acceptance

Acceptance, a common word with a common meaning . A word that shapes our every opinion , every choice and every decision .

Probably the reason i'm even writing this ...is to get accepted , accepted as a person , accepted as a writer . The need to please everyone we meet is a reflex , oh God! Do I look good enough? What does he think about me ?Do I have to make small talk again ? ugh.. I just want to go home . Why the hell home ? Because home is a place where our every flaw is accepted , every bit of laziness is justified, every emotion is magnified and most importantly we accept ourselves. We accept ourselves without makeup, we accept ourselves in our cute PJs and a sip of hot chocolate brings us comfort . The need to feel accepted is enormous. It eats us up bit by bit, piece by piece. Even if we try to fight it , we need approval , we need to fit right in , being labelled as different is not acceptable, it's not comforting enough . We have been expected to make the biggest decision of our lives at the age of 16 .. choosing a stream?, mapping out our entire life. Now, the hard fact remains that the only “acceptable” stream is Science . Being a doctor or Engineer is supposed to make u wealthy and happy . Even when the nosy relatives who shouldn't even have an opinion in your life ask what stream you took your parents proudly say science. Now that's acceptable, now your parents are proud .

what a load of crap we talk about not giving a fuck but we do , we treat the next person as our messiahs. Why do we do that? Chances are we might not even see them again , yes u might be in a story where they describe how a weirdo was vibing to a song so much it made everybody uncomfortable or how an idiot decided to dance in the middle of a restaurant or how a stranger had the audacity to wear comfortable clothes outside their homes .

One of the weirdest things that helps you fit right in is watching Netflix. A topic that makes small talk so much easier. Do you watch gossip girl ? Oh yes! I love chair ik right they are meant to be and bam... you're friends . Why don't we become " bam friends " and talk about gossip girls? Why did queen b who had everything , didn't accept small town girl Jenny Humphrey as her friend? Hell, she was not even accepted as a minion. Out of all the people, why was Dan Humphrey gossip girl , they didn't fit in. They weren't accepted. And the need to be " one of them " made them do horrible things such as exposing secrets , buying expensive stuff, going to parties, changing everything about themselves . Dan Humphrey sold out all of his friends just to be a part of the upper west side .

This brings me to my last point need. Why do we need acceptance? Why do we need to be reassured that We are living life " right".

Well i say, fuck right !If wrong feels good, wrong it is. The only person that has the right to tell you if you are "acceptable " or not is you . We have one life, it isn't enough to care about what other people think , make the most of it , make yourself happy and always keep your middle finger ready for haters